obstacles are common in life

I guess I take life too easily?

Whenever you are not prepared most, it's the time when troubles find you. It's an alarm bell to ring you out from your beautiful perfect world to this cruel reality. Sometimes it slaps you hard on your face, sometimes it's just a mere scratch to give you that pinch of pain. Well, it definitely depends on how lucky you are.

Definitely never take things for granted. This piece of advice has been so cliche, yet so true. If you think you have everything in your finger tips, think twice.. Better yet think thrice. It is not life if you have everything under controlled. There is always a troublemaker finding its preys, messing and spicing up a little of your plans. It makes you feel anxious, that anxiety is the feeling that keeps you moving. Otherwise, what a dull life you'll be living.

We, humans are needed to be let down once in awhile. Benefit that we can gain is to know how much desire we want for that specific thing or someone. A strong desire drives you to success (or at least the satisfaction of being near there), a weak desire leads you nowhere. The rejection is the force that produce a better you, changing you to be a better person.

Agree or disagree?

its a struggle to adapt to different personalities and there will be a point where it says "let it go". then there is when you draw yourself out from the circle you've made. just wait for the energy to be energized and try again hoping that it isnt too late.

stupid line

the bad line has finally taking its toll on me. i am finally feeling the anger other students felt 2 months ago. my anger came a little slower than it should be because i have been patient. but today i don't know why, bad mood seems to be awaken in the end.

Anyway, i have been listening to the theme song of the movie You Are the Apple of My Eye over and over for about 30 times or so. It seems that the guy and the girl did not have a happy ending, the guy just watched her getting married to somebody else. Still waiting to watch the movie.

Well, life is no fairytale where the guy meets the girl, fall in love, and happily ever after. Each and every relationship has its ups and downs, obstacles, rejections. Not every human being are able to stand strong and face it. Some will tend to back out, give up and walk away. We decide the road we want to walk, if the path chosen was wrong, there will be no undo button. We can only see the footsteps we left behind, learn the mistake and do not repeat the same mistake. Last but not least, be kind and give blessings.

I have never watched any love movies for quite a while. I've always preferred the sad ones LOL

Good food has been haunting me. It's calling me. Sirens going on and on. The food here has not been satisfying, it just makes me want to eat more because it is not satisfying. Last time, getting McD is so easy, now.. it is like far beyond my reach. Food seriously affects my mood. I have no idea how it started but food plays a vital role in my life.

Second thing, at university phase, it's not easy to get exercises with answers and solutions. They are so limited and only with a book reference i am counting on. When I want to be all hardworking and staying focus, I have no materials to do so. During form 6, I have all the materials I needed and I did not bother to look over. This feels like a payback. Revenge from education, letting me feel how is it like to be neglected =.=

Next, I don't think I like to deal with the machines, things that got to do with mechanical? I guess? Tiny circuits interest me more perhaps?

I have a favor to ask. Can you give me ?

I need guidance. I need protection. I need wisdom. I need strategy. I need courage. I need energy. I need direction.

I am not asking too much. I suppose.

I seriously need to get rid of my craziness in form 6. I should only use it when it is necessary. Overused is actually quite tiring at times but if I have too much to give, what am I supposed to do? Just got to learn how to save for emergency purposes. LOL.

I am still unsure whether am I more to introvert or extrovert. I feel unsafe whenever I am too extrovert and I feel lonely when I am too introvert. I guess everyone is normally 50 50. Anyway, I do not want to repeat the mistake in the past. It is wrong and I know it. There should be a border line in every action.