in these two weeks time, i have received a few bad news from my mom regarding the health of my relative and my family members. these people are people who i adore or too young to be sick in that way.
Dear God,
i do not wish for many luxurious things in my life. my main objectives are the people i am close to especially my family members and relatives to stay strong and healthy. i wish that you, Lord is able to fulfill this wish of mine. i hope that You will be able to look after them when i am not by their sides to show my concerns and my care. it's just disheartening to see such situations and receiving these news when i am in the middle of stressful period.
i am giving my very best to stay strong throughout this semester. i love to see happy people around me when i am down because indirectly they literally make burst out into laughter with their silly jokes and actions. from there, my unhappiness will eventually fade away. i am glad when it works this way. however, i do get annoyed easily when people become down and emo over petty issues. if it is for important or big matters then i understand but not silly things. life is too short to spend the time being sorrow and sad because the time being cheerful and happy is already so limited! Don't you think so? in the 24 hours that i have, i have wasted so much time being busy but thank god of people around me who insert their laughter and smiles in between the minutes and seconds in my life. the period of time is small but it means the world. you will never know how such small actions bring impact to your daily lives.
however, with this thought of mine, sometimes i felt that i am little to selfish because i set my expectation high. i expect that everyone should think like me where of course each individual has their own opinion on how to live their lives. because of that i expect them to understand what is it to be happy-go-lucky that i have forgotten to put myself in their shoes.
i hate being sad and down and emo and stress and cry and angry. there are too much negativities for me to handle! these elements shall be eliminated one by one as my life goes on.. Dear God, this is another selfish wish that i wish. haha
Amen.
