I seriously need to get rid of my craziness in form 6. I should only use it when it is necessary. Overused is actually quite tiring at times but if I have too much to give, what am I supposed to do? Just got to learn how to save for emergency purposes. LOL.

I am still unsure whether am I more to introvert or extrovert. I feel unsafe whenever I am too extrovert and I feel lonely when I am too introvert. I guess everyone is normally 50 50. Anyway, I do not want to repeat the mistake in the past. It is wrong and I know it. There should be a border line in every action.

While I am listening to We are the world song for the Haiti, I feel the necessity to lend a hand. But if we are not able to help our own people, how much can we do for them ? I guess to practice that, we need to start bit by bit for people around us. Any type of help will do as long as you do not hope for a return.

I always visualize myself doing charity and become volunteer for other 3rd world countries but it's all in my mind. I am not that bold to do so but I hope one day, that one day will come and I will accomplish that task starting from my country and the list goes on.

Is suffer needed in this world? But if it does not exist, people will not learn and change.

In UMP

Settling down here at University Malaysia Pahang campus Pekan. This university has two campuses, where the other one is located at Gambang. It is about an hour drive by bus from Pekan. Yes, it is very rural, as the 30 minutes driveway out of my university consists of empty lands. After that half an hour drive, you will start to see buildings and shopping malls. I would say the area at Kuantan is something like our Penang's mainland. Yes, still not likable by many Penangnites. Water shortage has been occurring for the past few days and we bathed at public toilets in the lecture building. This is not something you guys will get to do in your comfort zone. I call it experience! Cows and cow dungs are common objects to be seen but it is us that are invading their territory. Everything is new so I shall consider that as lucky as some other universities out there do not provide these advantage for them. To get good food, sacrifice some time to go out there and explore. Good food will not come to you if you do not reach out for them.

Many of my friends asked me how is it here? Can survive or not? Lol

I am here for 2 weeks already and surprisingly I am fine with it here. Hard to believe, yet it is the truth. Transferring from a happening state (well, KL comes first) to rural area is very eye-opening. I have to do everything here by myself when back at home, mom did the chores. Here I wash my own clothes, clean my own room, have my own meals with what is provided. It is definitely a life changing from me but it makes me independent and my survival mode is turned on! The very first is to make friends with people all over Malaysia. I came here solo with no companion but I fear not. With fear, I will accomplish nothing. So the friendship process goes on and students here are nice and friendly because we are going through the same problem. Being stuck up serves no purpose in this environment. In conclusion, I like it how I will be trained here. Anyone can be trained anywhere even in private universities but the environment differs from place to place.

It is quite wrong to judge your future based on the place you are in. You choose how you would like to lead your life and if you are able to, anywhere is not a problem. But if you fail to visualize and be optimistic, your life will be lead by others. Of course, if one has a better offer, choose wisely.

P/s: these are only part of my rants, I have a lot to share but this is sufficient on how i feel. 3 years and 11 months more to go !