Dear..

in these two weeks time, i have received a few bad news from my mom regarding the health of my relative and my family members. these people are people who i adore or too young to be sick in that way.

Dear God,
i do not wish for many luxurious things in my life. my main objectives are the people i am close to especially my family members and relatives to stay strong and healthy. i wish that you, Lord is able to fulfill this wish of mine. i hope that You will be able to look after them when i am not by their sides to show my concerns and my care. it's just disheartening to see such situations and receiving these news when i am in the middle of stressful period.

i am giving my very best to stay strong throughout this semester. i love to see happy people around me when i am down because indirectly they literally make burst out into laughter with their silly jokes and actions. from there, my unhappiness will eventually fade away. i am glad when it works this way. however, i do get annoyed easily when people become down and emo over petty issues. if it is for important or big matters then i understand but not silly things. life is too short to spend the time being sorrow and sad because the time being cheerful and happy is already so limited! Don't you think so? in the 24 hours that i have, i have wasted so much time being busy but thank god of people around me who insert their laughter and smiles in between the minutes and seconds in my life. the period of time is small but it means the world. you will never know how such small actions bring impact to your daily lives.

however, with this thought of mine, sometimes i felt that i am little to selfish because i set my expectation high. i expect that everyone should think like me where of course each individual has their own opinion on how to live their lives. because of that i expect them to understand what is it to be happy-go-lucky that i have forgotten to put myself in their shoes. 

i hate being sad and down and emo and stress and cry and angry. there are too much negativities for me to handle! these elements shall be eliminated one by one as my life goes on.. Dear God, this is another selfish wish that i wish. haha

Amen. 

梦梦梦

昨晚我做了一个梦。我梦见他。好像这是第一次掉眼泪。那个梦感觉起来很正。梦里面讲的故事讲回我们以前忽略对方的时候。但是在梦里，我做的决定跟现在做的决定是不一样。到现在我做了那个决定是对吗？放下一切是对的吗？
梦里，是他的朋友讲了东西过后我才主动打电话给他。虽然那时候他讲他没空但是他讲他会打回给我。然后我就醒了 =.=
为是么不开心的东西要找我？我已经够烦了！现在我会把我的烦恼转去运动。这是一件好事但是我怕多一下子我就会慢慢的放弃了〜如果发生这样的话我就死定了因为我会转会吃的方向！！我的运动就白费哈哈哈！

他的存在

这几天我的生活有一点点的改变。我觉得我有慢慢的接受他了。我信他多少我还不知道。但是我会接受他的存在。他会让我感受他是在我身边一路来有在我背后帮着我。我希望我会加倍努力去学多一点他的事。多了解。
我最大的求是让我的家人和我身边的朋友都平平安安和喜乐。其他的事情是我们的秘密呵呵。

后悔有什么用？加油！

今天心情没有那么好。自信放了太高。跌倒的是后真的会很伤心。好像以前都没有感觉到这样的情绪。可能长大了，全部事情都变了更重要。可以讲我浪费太多时间做些无聊的事，过后没有把应该做的事做完。我可以怪谁呢？哈哈。
现在才要后悔好像太迟 ＞＜

Chinese post maybe?

每一个星期四晚上我都会上很闷的课。每一次都在发呆而已。真是浪费时间。是他不会教书还是我不能专心？但是不是我一个人觉得而已。其他人都在发呆吗。不止闷，还有很热！没有冷气！救命啊！
我只是在练习我的华语。没有话题就讲废话吧！

obstacles are common in life

I guess I take life too easily?

Whenever you are not prepared most, it's the time when troubles find you. It's an alarm bell to ring you out from your beautiful perfect world to this cruel reality. Sometimes it slaps you hard on your face, sometimes it's just a mere scratch to give you that pinch of pain. Well, it definitely depends on how lucky you are.

Definitely never take things for granted. This piece of advice has been so cliche, yet so true. If you think you have everything in your finger tips, think twice.. Better yet think thrice. It is not life if you have everything under controlled. There is always a troublemaker finding its preys, messing and spicing up a little of your plans. It makes you feel anxious, that anxiety is the feeling that keeps you moving. Otherwise, what a dull life you'll be living.

We, humans are needed to be let down once in awhile. Benefit that we can gain is to know how much desire we want for that specific thing or someone. A strong desire drives you to success (or at least the satisfaction of being near there), a weak desire leads you nowhere. The rejection is the force that produce a better you, changing you to be a better person.

Agree or disagree?