To Leave

How easy is it to leave? Leaving your family, partner, friends and etc? Being away from somewhere your comfort zone lies.. Im so attached to what i feel good. So, leaving it is actually difficult for me. If you are away but just a short distance, it's alright. Not when you're miles away and to meet up is counting by months. This is a test i know. A test where not everyone takes but God arranged. Able to live through it or not, not depending only on me. But also the other half/party.

The feeling is so reluctant right now. One side of my brain is thinking why cant i be simple and take up something over here while the other side thinking why not accept this challenge and give a try what lies in front of me. Who actually knows what's the correct pathway to lead. People do seek fortune tellers for their lives ahead. Sometime i thought of giving a try, but im just too afraid of what answer will be given to me. What if its bad and knowing you have a rough road ahead is depressing.

If it's not meant to be mine, why force? I guess there is always something waiting for me in the future =]